Doubt. I doubted I had the energy to do today's meditation! But I had a very effective meditation, despite being rather exhausted. I felt doubt that I could handle working from 10 to 10 Friday. Doubt that I could handle being away from Oliver, Michelle, and Jamie. Or doubting that Michelle could handle being alone all day.
There were feelings of loneliness. Not quite loneliness, but rather I was so able to be calm and meditate, that everything close to me felt at a distance, and the weight of being without those things and people had a tinge of something I can only describe as sadness. And yet the feeling wasn't negative, it just was.
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